If pain must come, may it come quickly. Because I have a life to live, and I need to live it in the best way possible. If he has to make a choice, may he make it now. Then I will either wait for him or forget him.
Paulo Coelho, By the River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept (via psych-facts)
People accept the love they think they deserve. I met you when I was lost and vulnerable, and since then, I have somehow accepted the disrespectful way you treat me, meanwhile I constantly supported and defended you. I now know how wrong I was and I regret how long it took me to fully grasp the situation. I was blinded by the glimpses of good that would shine through on occasion, turning my back on the constant affirmation that this behavior was fleeting and rare. I am done settling for this hurtful behavior and hope that you will someday be able to grow up and be a more thoughtful and considerate person. I wish you could see me now, and who I am. You turned me into a monster, a person I don’t even recognize. And for what? Most of my memories are of the heartbreak and torture; the moments where you truly outdid yourself, and I felt like I was physically punched in the stomach. Your ability to surprise me with what you were capable of would literally take the breath out of my lungs. And now I know. I look back and see how stupid I was for wasting so much time. I wish you could see me now; maybe you would have treated this person differently.
I crave space. It charges my batteries. It helps me breathe. Being around people can be so exhausting, because most of them love to take and barely know how to give. Except for a rare few.
Katie Kacvinsky, First Comes Love (via psych-facts)